A Picture of Rainy Days

Rain, rain, rain. Wow, I love rain! Especially when it means no school! All my classes were canceled today, so I got to have a bit of fun(plus some much needed sleep)! As you can see, I uploaded a new picture to head my blog. I took this outside today, in the rain. I'm very pleased with the outcome. Also, I moved my playlist to the side, to avoid scrolling up and down and all over the page! It gets cut off a little, so leave me a comment if you don't like it, and I'll see what I can do.

New Playlist

Hey! I got a Playlist!!
Scroll down....no down more....that's right. All the way to the bottom.

Sorry, that's the only way I could get it to work :)

Allow me to make it up by posting a picture!!
I posted this picture earlier, but I touched it up a bit and added some,
well....look and see for yourself.

The Wonderful Bad Days

Man, what a rough week! I was just totally loaded down with homework, piano practice for up-coming Christmas recital, volunteering at the annual "Harvest Hoedown" at KPC from 2-9... Of course, "fall-ing behind" on daylight savings time was nice, but I was SOOOOO exhausted after church today, that I had to take a 2 hour nap! That was amazing. Life has kind of got me down now, and I don't know why, but it seems like all I can do is keep on smiling... I can't help it. Jesus is so good to me. Sometimes I feel so squashed between my busy schedule, God has to scrape me off the sides with a spatula. but still, I feel...at peace. It's a chaotic peace, though - a jumble of restful dissaray.

I think when we have "bad days," it's up to us how long we keep on wallowing in our misery. I sometimes wonder if there's not still a little 5-year-old in all of us, that just wants to pout and make everybody else miserable because things didn't go our way. We keep on hoping that, if we keep on whining and frowning, someone will eventually look down see how pitiful we are and give us sympathy. What we don't realize is that people stand out because of their constant joyfulness - not miserableness - even when they're stuck in a hard place. That's how we get noticed. That's how God wants us to stand out, and He rewards us for it. Sometimes I look back on a really bad day that I have had, not one in particular, but I have to realize what a mess I made of my life. It is usually my fault, after all. Jesus was standing there the whole day, just a prayer away, but I refused to realize this in the heat of my rebellious anger. He lets us mess up to show us how we need Him. He peppers us with love without babying us. He lets me fall, so that He can be the One to catch me.

Now, don't think me totally apathetic for saying this, but I have a hard time understanding Christians who are constantly depressed, always drawing others around them under their raincloud of doom. I see how people can get like this, (like some certain groups in society which I need not point out) if they don't have the love of Jesus in their lives, but how can you, even with Christ constantly loving on you, still find the worst things in life to dwell on? What a terrible, cold way to live!

Proverbs 23:7 says "As a man (or woman!) thinks in his (her) heart, so is he (she)." If you are constantly dwelling on things of this world, it will soon capture your heart and drag you down to its level. If all you can think about is the rotton things in life, your heart will soon become a stinking, rotton garbage heap that everybody avoids. Sorry for the graphicness of that last analogy; it was the first thing that came to mind, however, true.

This is the reality of my life. This is my heart. People ask me, "how do you keep on smiling?" This is the answer. So before you ask me again, read this. It is as detailed and as simplified as I can possibly get it, if that makes any sense at all.

YES! I spoke my heart without rhyming once! I'm trying a bit of journaling, instead of songs. Don't get me wrong- I LOVE songs, they will always be a part of my heart, but rhyming reaches a certain level of insincereness, especially when you have to settle for a word that doesn't completely express your feelings just because it doesn't fit. That is the sole error of peotry, I believe. I think TRUE poetry is such an art because you really think through what you are trying to say before you actually say it, which is hard enough. Then you have to find the PERFECT number of words, syllables, sequences, rhyming, all that. If it even makes sense, you're good to go. If it rhymes and makes sense it's a miracle. I CANNOT write songs when I'm dwelling on things other than Jesus, or it comes out sounding like a kindergarten sing-along. When I dwell on the Lord, He is my reward! And that is exactly the way I want my relationship to be! I love how Jesus keeps me on track. It's just another way He reveals His love.


Would it break y'all's heart if I didn't post a photo just for once?